Preliminary stab

So: Some of you may have noticed that I've been thinking about things.
Some of these things are related to one another. Slowly I have been solidifying an understanding of what we are. And more and more it looks like there are some fundamental differences between what is starting to show up for me and what the standard understanding is. So. I'm staring to think that I should organize all this and structure it into some sort of work. As I am doing that my plan is to put my notes and drafts and things here. I have been wanting for there to be DVD-extras type work for a number of things that I have read, and I feel like it will generally enhance the possibility of understanding what I'm up to in the end if I am as transparent as possible. There may be a danger of putting all my cards on the table, but really in the end I'm pretty sure that the only thing that can come of that is more conversation which can only help things along. We are all involved in the project, and I am just a locus of its activity. As it will come to show. I hope.
This is perhaps the first official step of a thousand mile journey that I have been on for a while, and it has a lot in common with my journey west: it is an exploration, and I am in some ways alone, and in other ways more connected than I have ever been. I kind of feel like an astronaut; I am far far away from where most people are residing, and communication with the general population has become difficult. But I have a radio link to a few of you, and that bond is stronger for it being my only tie back to the planet where most people live. And maybe we all feel like that. Maybe some times more than others.
In any case, here is the initial outline I threw up this morning. It is the sketchiest of sketches. A shadow of a shadow. But it's something. Here we go:

it

Chaos/Order
Much/One/Many/One
Unstable/Stable
Evolution!
The vast proliferation of mind.
The rise/myth of individuals
Culture/individual
Public/Private


you

Conversation
/Confrontation
We/you/I
Self as object
id/ego/id-ego
self understanding limits
strange loop/wolfram
conditions of self - > structure of self
derrida's trace: differing differed, universality of that


I

my life is this moment
my life
this moment
is this
moment
my
life is this moment


So we have this spiral inward, from the initial, scientific, mathematical understanding, to a psychological, symbolic, personal, to finally a breakdown of the phenomenal world and its showing itself in the enlightening moment. A lot of what this aims to be is a study of enlightenment as a concrete possibility of any self understanding. And how that appears, and what it shows itself as, what it shows us about what we are.
This will, inevitably, result in more you change than I change (as far as this thing is structured. You as self-object, I as this moment), as any understanding of the self that enters the general consciousness will become part of the self symbol (and is already preconditioned by that symbol), altering how we talk about selves, and in turn how we experience the self. But I think I'm shooting at some of the roots of the normal structure, even as I am using that structure to get there. We've been headed in this direction for a while.

And so that it's clear: This may be a systematic approach, but it is about the impossibility of any system (or systems) ever being adequate. This is not in any way an attempt to capture the world in a net made from a part of the world. This is an attempt to describe the weaving of such nets, and their becoming tangled up in themselves as they are stretched to capture a world that includes the net they are.

My next objective is to write an initial attempt at an introduction, which I hope to have up here sometime this week. I will keep you all posted as that happens.

(here we go)